Relapse

There was a time when I was scared.
There was a time when I feared.
There was a time when I couldn't let anyone in.
There was a time I promised I wouldn't tell.
There was a time when I kept it all in.
That time was back when I was scared to reach within.
When I was worried you wouldn't understand.
So i just didn't let you in.
I think i'm relapsin'
I don't want to breathe.
Not if it hurts.
Oh God how could this even be?!
I'm relapsin'
I thought I could even get by!
Now only thinking of a wish to die.